I had a viewer send me an email and asked that I not use her name, but get the word out. So here is her story.
“Mary” has often wondered if her past will ever stop haunting her, she has been through many things and trying everyday to wake up and smile at the world, and in one moment she realized she has always had it.
As a child she went through much abuse, from seeing it, to receiving it, and even worse hiding it. She cried as a little girl wondering why God would allow such hatred and so much fear in her life. She was told to pray and to believe that God is always with her no matter what, so she did.
The abuse was still there, as she grew up it just changed from a far worse kind. Now you would wonder why she never told, why she never told her mother that so many people touched her and made her cry. Why she would run and hide, Why would she never want to come home, it was fear.
As promised God gave her strength everyday, she met a man when she was older and thought that this must be love because he said he loved her, but it was only yet another road for her, the road that went from a child being scared to an adult being horrified.
People would say, why doesn’t she leave? She started to lose her faith, she began to believe she was nothing, and she never would be anything, it was her fault she was born, unloved, unwanted, and heartbroken.
She felt as if she was a lonely soul and hungry for someone to touch it.
Years have past, she became a divorced mother, and started another journey in her life. She told herself this time would be different, because she was stronger, she survived so much that things had to be better for her.
Her life has had many rough roads, and when she met the man that she finally knew what love was suppose to feel like, she trusted him from day one, she smiled, she didn’t have to worry.
This is all a dream she realized after finding out that her husband did not really want to be there. He loved her, but he could not handle the fact that she had a heart that longed for love, who wanted to feel romance, and who ached to feel him. He could not handle the pressure of knowing he had to be someone he did not know if he could.
10 years later, she is still with him as he sits and reads his paper,and she sits and reads him, wondering to this day, will I ever know what it feels to be loved? Then she looked over at her little table, and as a tear rolled from her eyes, she saw him sitting right there by her side.
He had a hard stern outside, and was so full of wisdom, love and his word. She reached for him and looked up and said, “You have always been there for me, you have never let me down, you have carried me when I was weak, and allowed me to walk on solid ground, and for all this I am truly thankful that I have found and have known what true love feels like. For you are the only one who has given me your word, and who has never let me down.”
As she leaned over reaching for The Bible, she placed it close to her heart, and in her last breath she said, “I love you GOD, for being my true one!”